I have heard.
My friends lose someone whom they care. They are of course neither me nor I am not them. Yet, the feeling of losing someone you care and love is too much to bear.
Hurt, guilt and anger rushed in at the same time. You are suddenly lonely although there’s a lot of people around. You are crying even you are on top of the world. You are not focusing for whats best in your life. Clock stops ticking. Life seemed ending. You are small and tiny; packed in a closet. You can’t breath and you can’t move. You just want to stay there, hoping people just won’t give a damn about you.
Yep, its not easy to struggle back. When losing someone you love so much, you will appreciate life as you move on. But its never to late to start new though you once felt its hopeless to look for one. When you have tried to love so much and it dissapear, you are scared for the next step. You are scared to love even more. Its better not to sacrifice and being selfish is easier. So its normal to feel sad and broken. But life must go on.
I’m praying that Allah gives us the strenght to carry on. I’m writing to let my friend know that we know how it felt. And remembering the feeling now, makes me love my life more than ever.
Life is full of surprises; but LOSING is just not the word…