22 December, 2009

I’m totally stressed up with my model!!!

I determined to finish the model before 22nd December, 2009.  I want to run it this friday… but its totally a wrecked for my neurons now.  I’m being crazy of finishing the bits and pieces of it.  I’m becoming crazy of doing the writing too which add up to the degenerations of my brain!

I hate every bit of nutrition since I have to model it in four seasons.  I hate it when I have to make a big table for the net energy calculation.  I hate it when the feed given changes from birth until weaning and after that god knows why oo why the increase in concentrate intake reduce the silage intake and what the heck is hay doing anyway in the first place??? and later thank god no need to model grazing season since forages during grazing is free!!! YEay…  and another problem came in, no 9 months old dairy cattle is allowed grazing… hows that going to be in the model??? Hate it.. hate it.. hate it!!!!

I hate it when the hay and silage is made by the farmer and theres no price tag for it… why oo why my supervisor make a difficult calculation just to substitute the price of concentrate with silage????  I just wanted to know the result.  Its been 6 months doing it, I guess I’m nuts of making this in the first place anyway.

I hate nutrition.. hate it… hate it…


3 thoughts on “22 December, 2009


    A girl went to her mother and told her about her life and how things were so hard for her. She did not know how she was going to make it and wanted to give up. She was tired of fighting and struggling. It seemed as one problem was solved, a new one arose.

    Her mother took her to the kitchen. She filled three pots with water and placed each on a high fire. Soon the pots come to boil. In the first she placed carrots, in the second she placed eggs, and in the last she placed ground coffee beans. She lets them sit and boil; without saying a word.

    In about twenty minutes she turned off the burners. She fished the carrots out and placed them in a bowl. She pulled the eggs out and placed them in a bowl. Then she ladled the coffee out and placed it in a cup. Turning to her daughter, she asked, “Tell me what you see?”.

    “Carrots, eggs and coffee”, the girl replied.

    Her mother brought her closer and asked her to feel the carrots. She did and noted that they were soft. The mother then asked her daughter to take an egg and break it. After pulling off the shell, she observed the hard boiled egg.

    Finally, the mother asked her daughter to sip the coffee. The girl smiled as she tasted its rich aroma. The girl then asked, “What does it mean, mother?”

    Her mother explained that each of these objects had faced the same adversity: boiling water. Each reacted differently. The carrot went in strong, hard and unrelenting. However, after being subjected to the boiling water, it softened and become weak. The egg had been fragile. Its thin outer shell had protected it liquid interior, but after sitting through boiling water, its inside become hardened.

    The ground coffee beans were unique, however. After they were in the boiling water, they had changed the water.

    ‘Which are you?’ She asked her daughter. When adversity knocks on your door, how do you respond? Are you a carrot, an egg or a coffee bean?’

    Think of this; Which am I? Am I the carrot that seems strong, but with pain and adversity do I wilt and become soft and lose my strength?

    Am I the egg that starts with a malleable heart, but change with the heat? Did I have a fluid spirit, but after a death, a break-up, a financial hardship or some other trial, have I become hardened and stiff? Does my shell look the same but on the inside am I bitter and tough with a stiff spirit and hardened heart?

    Or am I like a coffee bean? The bean actually changes the hot water, the very circumstance that brings the pain. When the water gets hot, it releases the fragrance and flavour. If you are like the bean, when things are at their worst, you get better and change the situation around you. When the hour is the darkest and trials are their greatest, do you elevate yourself to another level? How do you handle adversity? Are you a carrot, an egg or a coffee bean?

    May you have enough happiness to make you sweet, enough trials to make you strong, enough sorrow to keep you human and enough hope to make you happy.

    The happiest of people do not necessarily have the best of everything; they just make the most of everything that come along their way. The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past; you cannot go forward in life until you let go of your past failures and heartaches.

    Yanie, it has been a difficult years for you and your family. But deep in my heart i know that you’ll be okay. Wish you all the best. Be tough girl!!

  2. sha; Thanks a lot for the support.. ALhamdulillah masalah tu dh selesai cuma bila dh dekat nk habis raso xcukop masa.

    Nik; A very interesting and nice story to share indeed. I hope to be like the coffee bean!… Thanks a lot for sharing, you made me think differently after I read it!

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